Evening
Bout 2 months till I enlist so I thought I'd update this 'journal' of mine.
Been rewatching a couple of war movies/series the past few weeks. Getting myself hyped up for the training on October. What training? Mental training. Plan on pushing my limits but as for now, it's like a pre-training period. Started up my diet again, and so far I must say it's going pretty well. There's been a few leaks here and there but hopefully it'll be in full force once October comes. Thought I'd record this, weight as of 1st September is 92.5kg.
To be perfectly honest, I do want a nice body. The diet and training all I've gone through has been challenging, but for some reason there's not much progress.
Set my mind to go all out when I get enlisted into the army. Plan is to be the fittest among the unfit and hopefully I'll get into OCS. Atleast it'll offer me another option on what I want to do in life.
This doesnt make much sense now so I'll move on to another topic:- Girls.
Yep, the search has been tough. There's a few that I fancy, but knowing myself I'll say that I'm a hopeless romantic. Always waiting for that perfect moment to spring. Hopefully I can act when the time does come. I've found myself getting bitter each day. This has to stop. I don't wanna be that way. That's just not me. What happened to my old self when I'm so carefree. I'm starting to take more precautions in life and I dont really like it. It's probably the change of mentality I had when I started to 'change' back in 2010. Well I've come too far to stop so there's only one way to move - Forward.
It's nice writing in English again, of course my content is all jumbled up and I can only guess that my vocabulary has gone south. along with my grammar.
Well until next time, Bye.
Hawkes, Hakim (Captain - Hopefully)
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Hi. It's been a bloody long time since I've posted here. Well I don't really upkeep the blog anymore, I thought it was nice to log in once in a while and post some stuff here. Just like a diary. An E-Diary.
How's life. It's still, dull and boring. Nothing much is going on at the current moment. People been asking me why am I still single and that I should go look for someone.
I am looking for someone, just not actively. I've been looking around, but part of me want that fairtytale kind of stuff. I've always wanted to have one and only one girlfriend, but I blew that chance and here I am wondering what happened.
Of course I know what happened. Looking back, I would slap myself a million time. I was just an idiot back then, ah well. That's life. Past experience mould us into who we are today.
I guess it's kinda sucky not to have someone to care about. It's nice having to wake up and thinking of a person who you care about. Me? I just stare into blank space and wonder what life is going to be like for the day.
I don't really make sense now but I guess I'm just glad I still have a source to let this things out. No one ever reads this so it shall be a past memory the last time I'll read it.
Hi future me, have you find someone yet? If not you suck. Really.
We all gotta grow up someday, hopefully I will soon.
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Hi. It's been awhile.
ITP is over. The most awesome experience that I've got working. The first one sucked.
A little bummed out that I have to start doing my FYP now. I hate it. I hate all the planning.
I just want to start coding out my stuff. Even that is a problem for me. It's been a long time since I've touched Dreamweaver. Slowly, but surely I'll get my touches back. All about time.
How are you world. Life has been the same for me. I need a new challenge. A new view of life. I want to travel around the world. Hopefully I'll be doing that in the near future. I never liked Singapore that much, with all these foreigners coming in, we'll slowly die out. True Singaporeans.
First time in my life I feel so old. Going to serve my National Service next year. Soon I'll start work and following that , starting a family. Life really start to speed up once you hit the poly life phase. This sucks. Can't really do anything about it though. That's how life was made to be. Make you regret all those stuff that you didn't or did. I try to live a life without much regrets. That's how I 'roll'. There is those few mistakes, dumb mistakes, that I wished never happened but what can I do about it. Nothing. Just move on.
This is one random post. Just typing random stuff out. About to go to sleep. Hopefully one day when I lose sight of what I wanna do in life, I'll stumble upon this post again. Refresh my memory. Life is full of unexpected things. Like this blog post.
Bye for now.
Stay safe Singapore.
Dam them gym ratties.
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I know that no one every read this blog so I'll suppose I'll just keep it as a diary.
How's life? So far good. ITP is a blast at the moment and hoping it will stay this way till august.
Why am I writing again here? My english has been suffering. I've began to stutter like mad. This is bad, especially when you are working in an office with 2 british guys and an american. Have to stop making malays look stupid.
You know, my interest in learning French resurfaced. Why? BECAUSE IT'S THE SEXIEST LANGUAGE ON THE PLANET. I like it how suave they pronounce the words. Eargasm, quoted from KHUZAIMAH. hahahah .
Anyways that is all for now. Hope no one ever reads this.
This blog will be my memory log. I have a bad memory. There.
Stay safe.
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I'll admit it. Guys are never the ones who break down easily. Instead of crying, we change the medium. We write songs, write poems and that kind of shit.
I'm always the guy who absorbs the anger whenever there's an argument. I know my bad side, my rage. I always tell myself, I can't risk losing my temper. It's too ugly for other people to see. So instead of focusing my energy to fight back, I just hold it back.
I can't remember when was the last time I cried before this night. I held back tears from that shit MRT station to city hall. Hell I even joke to myself and felt a little better. But the long train back forced me to reflect on myself. I swear, that was the longest train ride in my life.
I can't even think straight while writing this blog so I shall stop here. Defenses broke down completely when I was in the shower.
A tear broke free. damn sial :s
On a lighter note, HP7 was awesome. Some interesting scenes that i likey very much
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I have to slim down. It's a do or die kind of scenario. Going for my nafa next year and I don't intend to fail again. Last time I did passed it was during sec 1. Bronze. Epic fail.
On a lighter note, i've started cardio sessions. Regretted not starting sooner, but who cares. Live and learn.
Stay calm and keep living, That's my new quote I suppose.
Stay sharp Singapore,
Dam them gym ratties
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I've been feeling different these past few days. Let's just say that I'm in a different light now.
Not used to this feeling. I'm never good at taking pressure. I instantly blow up. I don't like this
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